All I have are questions. I don’t expect any answers. I can’t imagine the pain that you went through to make these decisions. I know it was a struggle.
But I do have questions for those who have left…
When did you decide that it was no longer worth it? That what you believed wasn’t real? That what you believed wasn’t worth pursuing?
When did you stop believing in the satisfaction you once found in God and start believing the lies this world tells you?
When did you decide that finding satisfaction in what you wanted to do was far more satisfying than what God wanted?
When did retreat from the life you had once lived seem like a better option than the life you live now?
Was any of it ever something real to you? The hours spent worshiping? The moments spend in His Word? The time spent working together for the Gospel? The time spent in prayer?
Was living a life for Christ ever something that brought you joy? Was it a burden on you soul to live this way? Did it not bring you satisfaction?
Are you far happier now than where you were?
Who do you now run to when you are in pain? When you feel shame? When you fell helpless?
Do you ever feel like the part of you life lived for God was ever a mistake? Like it wasn’t worth it? Like it was a waste of time?
How has this affected the relationships you may have once had with those who still follow Christ?
Do you find yourself ever wanting to pursue the Person you claimed to follow? Or is a distant memory? Is it a fading late? Is it something you wish you could forget?
What is truth? If it is not in Christ, then where is it found? If God’s Word does not provide the answers to life, then where do we find them?
Can you honestly look at the brokenness in this world and think we can find the answers amidst this chaos?
Do you think God mad at you? Will He take you back?
Do you think God will have you?
Do you think God loves you?
Do you think Christ died for your sin?
Do you find yourself asking these questions?
He will have you.
He still loves you.
He died for your sin.
He is still pursuing.
Even when you are not.
He is faithful.
He is closer than you believe…
You’re not too far…